Violent Silence and Smiles

Smiles once were the only thing I knew to do well

Smiles once were the jewel I sport.
Smiles once were the true feeling out of heart.
Smiles sailed a few miles but are stalked now.
Smiles carved curves on my face where the river of joy flows.

Smile … Smile … Smile ….

Gashing the innocent territory, flared up a volcano
Hymns are horror it sang, that hogged the honor.
All you see left is a canyon of once, the river of joy.
And the Creeks formed by the flow of tears.
The sunlight that used to warm up is piercing now.

Hope it is an evacuation drill but it is not a bit.
The craving to creep is dead.
The cry is loud in the silence and the dark.
The scars, curves or lines now, are the monikers of the abysmal times.
It is an irremediable equation.

Cry … Cry…. Cry….

The canyon can be filled if the Tethys Sea melts to be a sea again.

The canyon can seize to exist when a black hole sucks it all.

This canyon can lose its identity if there is a bigger volcano tears it further.

The canyon can be covered if species can habitat in these harsh conditions.

The canyon is adorable to tourists that flock to see and just see.

Smile now is a weapon at the entrance.

In plastic, brass, steel and iron I cast it.

In wood I shape it.

Smile now knows no emotions.

Smile now is a lotion that stays till wash and is reapplied immediately after wash.

I forgot why would one smile?
I forgot when would one smile?

Do I really know when not to smile?

Do I really have another expression to wear on?

Hard to believe I am the same soul then and now.

Little stupidity enjoyed

I was driving my way to office. I noticed a dust tornado. The scale of dust tornados here can just dirty you and nothing else. They are quick and short. I used to see them in the open grounds of my school and near my college. If I am around, all I knew was to close my eyes and cover my face. Of course cough out in the dust, look at myself so dirty ….. All that follows. But this time it was different. I was in a car, using sunglasses. While everyone was trying to move away from it, I rolled up my car windows and went dashing into the tornado. Debris flying around. I did not close my eyes this time. I was seeing the particles of dust running around. It’s not Graphics! Once out of the tornado, the feel like a comic super people jumping in and out of a tornado. Immediately behind me the tornado subsided. Or maybe I tore it apart and saved the city. Hahaha

After these moments of stupidity and craziness, I realized how I dirtied my car. What a caddish behavior was that. I really wished I disappeared from there. Certainly there was no much traffic but there were a couple of cars on the road who must have witnessed my craziness. Thanks to my oversized sunglasses that covered more than half of my face. BTW, I was not driving dangerous.

Why did you ditch Me?

I see you from distance and blush.
I see this brushed you and you feel it.
Your look up for me as I rush.
I know you are waiting for me.
I want to be perfect before I give myself to you.

I am 100% pure and untouched.
I try to reach you with all the sanctity.
Just for you to feel me.
I love the way you handle me.
I choose to leave the cradle I am in to reach you.

But you ditched me….

I am falling free as you are not holding me.

My family roared at you.

Some came down to you.

Sometimes they clapped the whip and I wish they don’t hurt you.

I bent down to your feet to be at your service.

But you still let me down.

Situations you threw me to, tried to dirty me.
Your ditch for sure disturbed my sanctity.
I look up at my family. They are too far and cant help.

I want to stay pure.
I don’t know what to do or what would happen.
The malice you subjected me to, cannot hold me long.
I sink deep. Deep beneath the debris, I retained my purity.

So pure that you can still hold onto me and pull me up if you wish to.

If situations come my way;
I will rise up again and try to reach you once again.

Do you think it’s a love story!

LoL! It’s in the water cycle.
Passing clouds we look up at --> Raindrop, thunders --> dirty rain water on road --> ground water --> evaporation --> rain again

Only If....

If only I had the energy, I would emerge.

If only I had the courage, I would camouflage.

If only I had enough silence, I would sink.

If only I had treasure, I would triumph.

If only I had potential, I would get a perk.

If only I had synergy, I would survive.

If only I had hope, I would try to hop out.