My True Love!!

What is the magic you did?
What is the spell that is working on me?
I know I am inclined to you.
But believe me I don’t want you.
You are such a pain and pain and only pain.
Life was better keeping you at a distance.

Do you really deserve all that I give you?
How is it that I am letting everything be your prey?
Do you have the mercy to leave back anything to me?
Or just keep burning all I have?
Do you ever give back anything?
Are you ever satisfied?
How could I fall in love with you so much?
So mesmerizing!

How is that, there is an energy flowing in me?
Energy I never experienced before.
But what is that I spend this energy on? For you have burnt all ….

How is that you are adored by all.
Not many can dare to love you.
You hypnotize the ones who love you and if they continue …
They become your slave…..
Who see nothing other than pain.
Yet, madly in love see a kind of bliss.
A bliss pains cannot touch.
Is this an illusion?
You give stamina to stand still and fight.
Is this just to buy more pain?
Is this an addiction?
With eyes open wide I see nothing around.
What is it that I still relish being with you?

I know it’s just a few quick snaps that I need, to desert you.
And walk on the beautiful path.
I see many worse than me do this.
But why am I still with you?
What is so special about you?
You better understand that the world just fancies you
But no one is ready to wear you on.
For you are a thorn crown.

How long would you test my dedication for you?
Wondering what my true love is?
“HONESTY”
Is it time for me to divorce you and flow blinded with the world?
Is the guilt monster not out there promising to hunt me secretly?

Nothing Left!

This is a long time post that I was hesitant to put up. But just a gud one to read. Nothing more. its one line straight from heart that I love and made me put this post up. That line is marked in bold.

Eyes rain for the dreams are too dry.
Eyes rain as sleep doesn’t take upon me
Eyes drain the heaviness in heart that is not melting
Eyes rain no matter what seasons change.

I am making friends with empty hands that give up.
I have lost so much that there is nothing I can claim to be mine.
How to bear every minute and second?
Every minute and second I tell myself
“I forgot you. I never want to think of you. I don’t think of you”
But why are your memories haunting me and making me cry?

The words written in your thoughts speak themselves now.
The past events ask me why did we have to split ways.
Call it reality or escape, I blame destiny.
Its all in the divine play where my tears become the wine.
What has to happen has happened.
Whatever has to happen shall happen now.

I am making friends with empty nights that have no more dreams.
I have lost so much that there is nothing I can claim to be mine.
How to bear every minute and second?
Every minute and second I tell myself
“I forgot you. I never want to think of you. I don’t think of you”
But why are your memories haunting me and making me cry?

It was a short while I was with you and then ….
Our ways have taken unexpected turns.
I lost me to you. I lost you to fate …
What is left now? Where is it left?

You are my every wish now.
Put me away from the pain I am in now.
Just the way you put me away from you.
I have been yours and not mine and now say …..
“I forgot you. I never want to think of you. I don’t think of you”
But why are your memories haunting me and making me cry?