Where is the hope?

There is darkness all around.
The light is not willing to come in.
Is your game paused? Is silence what you choose?
Is it a pause or a halt?
Is the rain making no difference to you,
As your eyes are already raining heavily?

The waves are rushing too fast,
Though the rivers are exhausted.
Friendship turned bitter and is working like the worst curse.
It’s not a dream. But reality of life.

Time

Time melts into experience.
Blends well to make memories.
Leaves a fossil in the history.
It starts and ends.
Both without you realizing.

.... worse depression ....

The missing bits of the past are haunting me.
Like the shadow that follows me everywhere.
Why cant I atleast know the reason behind all this.
The unexpressed silent fears are like thunder bolts.
Each of my breath is like a tsunami that I wish not to have.
I see nothing but darkness all around.
All the directions, paths I can take are converging to zero.

You were with me when I walked over fires.
The bond turned into ashes setting me ablaze but still not kill.
The worries I have will never subside now.
I continue to live, lacking trust and sensing threat
I don’t know if I can at least believe,
In my breath and the earth I walk on to be what I see them to be.
The missing bits of the past are haunting me.
Like the shadow that follows me everywhere.

Why? when? Where? What? Are all the unanswered questions …
They drag my existence to the death.
Fear in me is fueled by each of my thoughts and nightmares.
I don’t know if I can at least believe,
In my breath and the earth I walk on to be what I see them to be.
The missing bits of the past are haunting me.
Like the shadow that follows me everywhere.