Silence has taken a lot of forms in my life.
Silence meant lack of energy.
Silence meant lack of creativity.
Silence meant wasting time.
I live close by to a lively road.
Silence at my home is next to impossible any hour of the
day.
Silence meant sketching a crime.
Silence is sometimes the most violent violin.
Silence is as threating as an ice burg to an Indian.
Staying away from home gave me the room to experience
silence. And I learned to relish silence. It gives you peace of mind. You can
focus better. Your ears are just running the basic functionality but not
pumping multiple feeds to your brain. Your brain is just waiting for your
orders now. You can meditate easily and are lot more a clam person. I rushed to
office at 7:00 AM to give a presentation. And after the presentation ended when
I pushed back in my chair I realized and had no thoughts in my mind, I experience
a calmness creep. With No one on the floor and absolute silence, I just sat
relaxed and enjoyed the silence. May be in a plusher chaotic life it is nice to
have a silence break.
Unfortunately “noise can enter silence! Silence cannot
enter noise!”
Flip-side, if eyes are not on watch or if I am uncertain
of things that can happen, a tiny-winy noise is enough to trigger a “take to
your heels” fight back mechanism in me. Sleeping light in absolute silence! An
open tap is enough to wake me up with a bad jerk and irk my soul.
Destroying a forest is a crime.
Staying away from home gave me the room to experience
silence. And I learned to relish silence. It gives you peace of mind. You can
focus better. Your ears are just running the basic functionality but not
pumping multiple feeds to your brain. Your brain is just waiting for your
orders now. You can meditate easily and are lot more a clam person. I rushed to
office at 7:00 AM to give a presentation. And after the presentation ended when
I pushed back in my chair I realized and had no thoughts in my mind, I experience
a calmness creep. With No one on the floor and absolute silence, I just sat
relaxed and enjoyed the silence. May be in a plusher chaotic life it is nice to
have a silence break.
How do I interpret?
Where is the definition for self?
The community I live in would give me stares for this. I
would be taken to an atheist though I am not. Anything that may go wrong with
me would be attributed to this siting that it is God’s curse. But none of them
would explain the worse times I faced earlier when I was one among them bowing
to every norm and flowing along without objecting though I did not quite
understand. Well with a deep breath I brace myself to take it all. If I am
wrong, let the world learn seeing me. If I am not wrong, I would burn out a
thorn that is pricking me now. Would I burn out the same thorn in others? This
crown has to still learn not to be a herd but be more sensible humans. 
